Do I have a place here?
curls
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I feel quite depressed today, as I don't know if I have a place here. I can't manage to put together a coherant theory, or do the maths for TS's challenge. Like many others, I haven't been here since 'the beginning', and I often feel 'lesser' because of that. I'm still learning, I'm still forming opinions, I don't think I have it all sorted and I have an open mind that tells me just about anything is possible in this hoax but I often hesitate to post for fear of attack. I don't know if I can be a part of this if I don't feel comfortable about voicing ideas, thoughts or questions, when there are such forceful, dominant, outspoken people around, seemingly ever ready to pounce.
I feel really uncomfortable about threads in which there is a lot of bad feeling, arguing etc, you know the stuff. For the most part, I keep out of it, but still it leaves a very bad taste. It upsets me when people just won't let things go. We're never going to all agree on everything and yes, no doubt, some come here simply to cause trouble, but the attention and negative energy spent when these things happen, to try to hammer home a point to someone who doesn't want to listen, or who has their own, equally valid (to them), opinion is totally draining. Meanwhile, genuine, quietly 'spoken' posts get overlooked or ignored in all the drama.
I'm hesitating to post this, but I will anyway because these thoughts are eating away at me today.
I feel really uncomfortable about threads in which there is a lot of bad feeling, arguing etc, you know the stuff. For the most part, I keep out of it, but still it leaves a very bad taste. It upsets me when people just won't let things go. We're never going to all agree on everything and yes, no doubt, some come here simply to cause trouble, but the attention and negative energy spent when these things happen, to try to hammer home a point to someone who doesn't want to listen, or who has their own, equally valid (to them), opinion is totally draining. Meanwhile, genuine, quietly 'spoken' posts get overlooked or ignored in all the drama.
I'm hesitating to post this, but I will anyway because these thoughts are eating away at me today.
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I feel sorry for you if you feel like you don't belong to be here or anything, you shouldn't feel that way!
And you know what I agree on when you say "when there are such forceful, dominant, outspoken people around, seemingly ever ready to pounce. " It's true, i've noticed it too lately. Maybe people are stressed out cause there aren't many clues around anymore. People start to wonder when Michael will finally return and sometimes that takes the best of them.
If it's helping : I'm always here and I will never be mean to you, or to anybody else for that matter.
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*Mwah*
I don't think you should worry about voicing your opinion, if it is said with grace and understanding, I cannot understand how that would bother anyone. If someone is rude to you when you have been kind, it is their problem and they are making themselves look like a fool.
I personally think this should be a place to bring together theories based upon evidence as to what happened to Michael Jackson on 25th June 2009.
I have much respect for you for posting this, and don't ever feel you are 'lesser' than someone, you are not.
Peace and love
with L.O.V.E.
Robyn
You're already on the right track <!-- s;) -->;)<!-- s;) -->
A well spoken word is like a drink of water on a hot day. Your voice does matter here and no matter how small or loud, I am one who hears what you have to say. None of us have this figured out. Blessings on your day.
So I prefere to read, but there are so many posts that I can't keep up with all of them. I often read your posts and you're a really kind person with good theories. You also anwered on my post a while back, I remembered that I was honored because I don't get many replies! That's OK with me, maybe it's because my posts are really not that outspoken and often I can't explain what I really mean because english is not my first language. Keep on posting Curls, I enjoy reading them! Hugs! Do
FIrst, words from Michael (that I have on my ipod but made into a video for you!)
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Second, I sing Michael's song Smile....
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Hope both put a smile on your face the way they do for me! <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D -->
all i can say is : you are not alone
wish i could come up with something more wise and wonderful but i think i been beaten to the punch <!-- s:P -->:P<!-- s:P -->
PS...I wouldn't take it personally if no one responds to your comments/posts...it happens to me a lot. There are many posts that I notice and/or find interesting, but often don't comment on due to time constraints. There are so many posts every day. It's hard to keep up. I hope your tomorrow is better than your today!
LilWendy, thanks so much for that video. A reminder of why we love him so much, and how he draws our hearts to him.
As for 'Smile' - I can't listen to that now, or try to sing it without thinking of the lovely Jermaine!!
Thank you all so much. xxx
Just want to say, quite simply, we need you here. Your intelligence, discernment, and sensitive heart are of great value. There has always been a perfect place and purpose for you. I believe we are all being tested and tried in this refining process and will come forth as gold. I pray that your confidence will grow as you discover your hidden strengths and know we are all standing with you in this journey. <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
I hope you are feeling much better at the week's end <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
It's a long, difficult road, this hoax. Your posts are always spot on and very insightful.....thank you!
Many blessings to you!!!
L.O.V.E.
Wishingstar
Sorry for not responding sooner...I just came across your post. Like many others here, I can understand your hesitation and uncertainty in relaying your thoughts, ideas, and opinions. And, oftentimes, even once we get over the fear of posting, it seems people either respond negatively or no one responds at all...I don't know which hurts more. Your post, in itself, provides us a glimpse into your heart and your other posts, even those that you feel went unnoticed, also show the goodness of your soul. I tend to believe, as others have suggested, that although no one replies it does not mean that others haven't read your words. But even if you, or any one else here, ever begins to feel despair over not being noticed or heard...I hope that this strengthens your resolve and imprints a smile on your heart:
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You do belong and you are appreciated. "Don't ever let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."
With L.O.V.E. always.
Don't feel like you don't have a place here because you do! We all do as a matter of fact.
I'm sure u can come up with some very great theories don't worry about getting attacked or put down etc because everything each of us bring to this forum is helpful <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D -->
I used to be scared to post also but i had to overcome my fear not for myself but for Michael. I'm sure he wants you to help out because he knows all of us here have a beautiful mind and we all have different opinions <!-- s;) -->;)<!-- s;) -->
If you don't understand don't be scared to tell us because we can help and break down anything you need help with in a way you can understand.
I don't understand half of TS's posts but i still try to read over them again and again which is kinda annoying but anything for me to understand is what i have to do <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D -->
I love ya Curls and everyone else <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> I hope you take this post and all the others to heart <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> We want you to feel happy because you most definitely have a place here <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> !
Here's a clip of Michael feeling left out LOL it's cute and funny love ya Curls <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D --> !!!
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