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alsmom380
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Hi! I just wanted to take a moment to introduce myself. I'm 41 with 2 grown kids and 2 dogs. I have been informally visiting this board off and on since Oct. 18, 2009.
On the evening of Oct. 17, 2009 I was attempting to drown my sorrows in a bottle of liquer. My sister had just left to fight the war in Iraq. I was STILL grieving over several family members who had passed, including my beloved Mother. My children had recently spread their wings and left the nest. To top it all off, my best friend from childhood had died.....Michael Jackson. I had a very rough childhood and to some, I would have been considered poor. I had a stepfather from hell. Kids at school seemed to hate me. I was more than shy...I was intraverted. My best friend was unknowingly there through my toughest years.
Well, I finally went to sleep on the 17th, hoping I could just "forget" about my woes for several hours while I was unconscious. About 2:30 a.m. I awoke from a real, vivid dream of my Mother. My Mom NEVER had been on a computer, much less knowing what YouTube was. Well, guess what? I jumped up from my bed and grabbed my laptop. Yes, she told me to look on YouTube. "For what"? I asked. I heard nothing, my dream was gone.
I turned on the computer and immediately went to the Tube. I immediately typed in Michael Jackson is alive...and Jonell Star's Michael Jackson's Death: Media Hoax came up first. Needless to say, I was ecstatic! I was fully awake by then and didn't sleep for 2 days afterwards. Searching. Couldn't get enough. One of my prayers had come true! That, my friends, led me here on that wonderful early morning. I've always come here in stealth when I need reasurance of my Mother's guidance. She was letting me know to seek the truth. She knows I love Michael so. Then, and now. Thanks, Mom for giving me life AGAIN.
I'm sorry this was long. I shortened it <!-- s:roll: -->:roll:<!-- s:roll: --> So, I probably will be adding stuff in the forum. I'll even have questions at times. Don't know about answering anyones questions....It looks like the forum is full of answers! <!-- sbearhug -->bearhug<!-- sbearhug -->
On the evening of Oct. 17, 2009 I was attempting to drown my sorrows in a bottle of liquer. My sister had just left to fight the war in Iraq. I was STILL grieving over several family members who had passed, including my beloved Mother. My children had recently spread their wings and left the nest. To top it all off, my best friend from childhood had died.....Michael Jackson. I had a very rough childhood and to some, I would have been considered poor. I had a stepfather from hell. Kids at school seemed to hate me. I was more than shy...I was intraverted. My best friend was unknowingly there through my toughest years.
Well, I finally went to sleep on the 17th, hoping I could just "forget" about my woes for several hours while I was unconscious. About 2:30 a.m. I awoke from a real, vivid dream of my Mother. My Mom NEVER had been on a computer, much less knowing what YouTube was. Well, guess what? I jumped up from my bed and grabbed my laptop. Yes, she told me to look on YouTube. "For what"? I asked. I heard nothing, my dream was gone.
I turned on the computer and immediately went to the Tube. I immediately typed in Michael Jackson is alive...and Jonell Star's Michael Jackson's Death: Media Hoax came up first. Needless to say, I was ecstatic! I was fully awake by then and didn't sleep for 2 days afterwards. Searching. Couldn't get enough. One of my prayers had come true! That, my friends, led me here on that wonderful early morning. I've always come here in stealth when I need reasurance of my Mother's guidance. She was letting me know to seek the truth. She knows I love Michael so. Then, and now. Thanks, Mom for giving me life AGAIN.
I'm sorry this was long. I shortened it <!-- s:roll: -->:roll:<!-- s:roll: --> So, I probably will be adding stuff in the forum. I'll even have questions at times. Don't know about answering anyones questions....It looks like the forum is full of answers! <!-- sbearhug -->bearhug<!-- sbearhug -->
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Welcome to the forum, let me start giving you my sympathies, I am so sorry your mom passed away. No matter what age you are we always need our mothers. I do strongly believe in spirits visiting us, and giving us clues. I am a very intuitive person, God gave me this gift, my intuitions are never wrong. When I saw on June 25/2009 that Michael passed away, something came over me and said NO way, he faked his death. Again, welcome to the forum and if you need anything you can Pm me.. blessings.
Normally, I'm somewhat intuitive but I faultered in believing what the media had been saying for nearly 4 months. I tend to mourn and grieve longer than the average person I guess and I was blinded from tear wells in my eyes for so long. Reminds of a song my Mom used to sing in church: ......T'was blind, but now I see <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) --> She sho sang like an Angel...
Hi alsmom380 - and welcome to our world. I loved hearing your life story. Sometimes it's triumphing over the pain in life that gives us the deepest of character and strength.
I look forward to hearing more from you. Together we will stand united for Michael.
May you be blessed this day.
Big hug! <!-- sbearhug -->bearhug<!-- sbearhug -->
Don't be shy, we are all the same and are here to support Michael in what ever way we can.
Welcome to the hoax fam.
I'm feeling stronger today and my character is really something. Sorta like a lioness, perhaps. Thank you for your kind words:)
@AnaMaria "Here you'll find plenty of thrills and true friends." I think I already have!
@Rk "I see you have 2 dogs. So do I and they rate among the loves of my life. Unconditional acceptance and love is what we get from having dogs.[sometimes I think we humans don't deserve them].
Don't be shy, we are all the same and are here to support Michael in what ever way we can.
Welcome to the hoax fam." What I shouldn've said in my introduction was my dogs own ME lol. Who else would kiss my tears away? Oh, and I'm not shy anymore. I've come a long, long way from that teenager in the 80's. Life's lessons I've learned. And Mike was with me every step of the way. He was there for me, I'll be there for him. Until the day I die. Thank you for making me feel welcome.
Sending you Blessings, Love and a great big hug! <!-- sbearhug -->bearhug<!-- sbearhug -->
Well, there may be a problem here. I've been "reading" since Oct 2009 but now that I'm a member I may become addicted. Watch out! Somebody STOP me! <!-- styping/ -->typing/<!-- styping/ --> Thanks for making me feel welcomed!
Grief , we can learn from what the Universe serves us. Thank you for your kind words. I see you're from CA. I'm planning to travel there from TN at the end of the summer. Can't wait!
And BAM? What's BAM? <!-- slolol/ -->lolol/<!-- slolol/ -->
P.S. I forgot to add in my intro that I can be serious but sometimes my comedic side comes out. It's my "alter" ego <!-- s
Grief , we can learn from what the Universe serves us. Thank you for your kind words. I see you're from CA. I'm planning to travel there from TN at the end of the summer. Can't wait!
And BAM? What's BAM? <!-- slolol/ -->lolol/<!-- slolol/ -->
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@MashMike I lost my Father when I was 8. But my Mother was another part of me. Still is. May your Mother's light continue to guide you <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) --> P.S. Your signature avatar is like a video on mute. I could watch it for hours!
@Kristina4LOVE Thank you. I'm feeling very comfie <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->