Just my feelings. . .
I have been having an off-day since June 25, 2009 and here it is July 10, 2012 and it hasn't seemed to get any better. . . his "death" has put me in such a funk there are times I can not even seem to function, I guess it seems silly to feel that way about someone I do not know personally but I have idolized Michael since I was a kid and going through all his trials and tribulations with him over those years as a dedicated MJ fan just made me feel so close to him, I understood him and believed in him and wanted to protect him and it hurts me to know I can not do those things. . . he doesn't even know I exist on this planet but that will not stop my love and passion for this man. he's more than an entertainer, he was/is a caring, loving person with a uplifting spirit and a beautiful personality. He has taught me so much and helped me to grow over the years. I don't know exactly where I am going with this rant but I just need to get it out Ever since June 25th, 2009 I have spent so much time trying to figure out what happened to MJ, I just felt he wasn't dead and I want answers (as we all do) and through all my dedication to him I believe I have failed at every day life, I even lost my job due to my obsession and with all that going on I was in much need of a break of all of the chaos. . . but in my break I have seemed to lost what has been going on and I am so confused now to what is happening :over-react-smiley: <br /><br />Sorry for my long and confusing rant. I just needed to get that out.<br />- Reese