Today I'm hurting :(
OneStepCloser
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Today has been such a hard day.
I've been listening to Michael all day on my ipod, everywhere I turn he is there. I was on the music channel and 'This Is It' came on, so I turned to another music channel, there was another singer on...and she hapenned to be singing a part of a song that says 'This is it' :S. So turned to ANOTHER music channel - You are not alone. So feeling like I was gonna explode I opened a magazine to read..first page 'Things that happened in 2009, Michael Jackson died', opened another magazine 'What song would get you on the dancefloor' and someone said 'Billie Jean'. I think I'm going INSANE!
I entered into the conversation AGAIN with some relatives. Was called deluded, sad, no life, accused of being cultish <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( -->
Im really just so upset, last night I was crying and crying and crying for hours.
I dont know what to do, I really need someone to help reassure me <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( -->
I've been listening to Michael all day on my ipod, everywhere I turn he is there. I was on the music channel and 'This Is It' came on, so I turned to another music channel, there was another singer on...and she hapenned to be singing a part of a song that says 'This is it' :S. So turned to ANOTHER music channel - You are not alone. So feeling like I was gonna explode I opened a magazine to read..first page 'Things that happened in 2009, Michael Jackson died', opened another magazine 'What song would get you on the dancefloor' and someone said 'Billie Jean'. I think I'm going INSANE!
I entered into the conversation AGAIN with some relatives. Was called deluded, sad, no life, accused of being cultish <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( -->
Im really just so upset, last night I was crying and crying and crying for hours.
I dont know what to do, I really need someone to help reassure me <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( -->
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i had this in my car whilst driving.. Man In The Mirror did it for me.. the tears where flowing.. just overwhelmed with sadness.. so i came home read some stuff on here an felt there is hope and some many of us are keeping the faith!!
Michael has done this for a reason!! whether he is alive or not.. we are a new family trying to solve the mysteries!!
KEEP THE FAITH.. LISTEN TO YOU HEART AND BE STRONG!!
hope this helps.. it works for me.. *hugs* x x <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
Keep your head high and when you have those hurting days, listen to your heart <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
Just the other day my sister, niece, and I went to do some Christmas shopping...it seemed like Michael followed us in every store. We would be browsing and my niece (who btw has become a big MJ fan) would point to something and say, "Look, there's Michael's initials. Did you see that?" or "Hey, that's Michael's hat from Smooth Criminal." A few times we unexpectedly heard Michael's music playing. We stopped at one place called HotTopic and guess who we saw? My sister spotted him right away. It was a t-shirt of Thriller. I never expected to see MJ merch in there.
As Michael-IS-Beautiful pointed out, these kinds of reminders can be painful but, they can also be the kind of reminders we need to help us keep the faith! <!-- s;) -->;)<!-- s;) -->
I'm glad my husband also thinks he's possibly still alive, so I can talk to him about it.
My mother thinks I'm grazy, but I stopt talking about it to her afther that remark, haha.
2 Of my best friends think it's possible too afther I told them some weird things. I'm glad they really take me seriously.
Here in Holland are tv-stations promoting new shows for the spring.
"Move like Michael", "My name is Michael", and more.
Every night we see the clips on tv.
They are all going to earn big money with these shows and one man always spoke bad about Michael in his showbizz program, but now it's all Michael for him because he is behind 1 of the shows. He's such a hypocrit, I can't stand it, makes me so angry.
Let's hope we are right and he's coming back some day ore we get the proof that he's really gone (makes me so sad only to think about that).
I hope soon, because it's time for some closure. Most of us can think about nothing else anymore ... <!-- s:| -->:|<!-- s:| -->
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I understand so much how everyone here feels... and it is this sense of unity that keeps me going on days like this. Every night when i'm in my bed i pray God to assure Michael is alive, well and safe, i pray for him to never feel lonely again and to feel all the love that's in this world for him, and i pray for him to return or give us a sign he's well so that all of you guys can stop hurting. It feels very special, because i never did it this way before. And each time i close my eyes after that i know everything's gonna be all'right!
Hugs to all of you! Keep looking on the bright side of life <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
Oh yeah Albert Verlinde, ugh that man is disgusting I can't stand him he's always said bad things about Michael and now he's such a hypocrit! <!-- s:evil: -->:evil:<!-- s:evil: -->
I hope Michael comes back before those shows begin because I don't really want to see My Name Is Michael because of Albert Verlinde being behind that.
But Move Like Michael Jackson would be good I think <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
But all these shows are done for nothing because Michael is still alive but I just don't want them to make money out of this it's so digusting, ''They don't care, they do it for the money''
I strongly believe that Michael is alive but I can´t understand what is going on with me. I should be glad but every time I see him I feel I wanna cry. <!-- s --><!-- s -->
Yeah, I agree.... we need some type of closure... or information of what's really going on.