I don’t feel good anymore
hesouttamylife
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This is Michael’s birthday. I should be dancing, or so I’m told. But for reasons unknown, I don’t feel very celebratory this day. It started off good enough, but as the day moved past noon, I started to feel sad :? Maybe it is because Michael is silent when we know he loves fun and joy and laughter. I need to feel him enjoying life apart from us. Maybe it’s because no one in my life understands my love for him and never cares to indulge my passion. It’s lonely being the lone guest at a party. Or maybe, perhaps it’s because there are so many references to his “death” in many of the tributes and tweets today. All I know is that I don’t feel good anymore.<br /><br />I stayed away from work because I knew I could not be there today working as usual. This is a special day. But in doing so, I let myself be too isolated and thus too subjective to outside influence. Maybe this isn’t the way to go it. <br /><br />I really, really need some Michael supporters in my life. Gotta find some who are real fans and want to do Michaelist things with me without thinking I’m a lost cause. Isolation sucks. I can imagine how Michael must’ve felt on many days. I sure could use a big ole hug. <br /><br />Michael, where are you? moonwalk_/ don’t walk away and stay away. Michael, come back.<br /><br />
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