sometimes I wish I could forget him for good
GreenManMakeAChange
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but I love him too much for that, I'm just having so much heartache over what's happened and it hurts too much to love him. And I feel so mad at him for not putting himself first, I wish there was no this is it or pleasing his fans, the industry or children if I knew what would happen. I feel guilty and selfish too for wanting him to do this so badly <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( --> I'm still mad at the doctor but now I'm mad at the poor thing and he doesn't deserve this venom from me <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( --> I can't even listen to him today, I'm listening to other artists and saying "fuck him" over and over <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( --> <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( --> and yet I replay june 25th in my head over and over. Does anyone have moments like this?
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And no personally i don't have days like that cos I'm not a "FANATIC" of him , i just like what I know about him , as a human , also his music of course ..
Well I know about the hoax since July so I guess the time has helped me , maybe I used to feel like you some days , but not anymore Ive learned how to handle it
Don't be like that , what's important is that he is alive & well u can't really say you miss him since you don't know him " in real life" , he hasn't done concerts or albums for years , he hadn't seen him for years on TV before his "death" , maybe I say that cos I was not a fan before , dunno . Be strong , Bon Courage
I can imagine what you're going through but if I can give you an advice is to distant yourself from all that a little and try to take things on another level, I mean not too personnal. As said by ROFL don't be a fanatic, be a fan, live your life. Maybe you should find something else in which you could find some escapism...if you have a passion for art for example or something like that, something more at your reach because Michael is not ours. Hope you'll get better soon cause this is not what Michael would like for you. He would prefer to see you Smile.
God bless you.
I just want this overwith. I want my Life back to normal. This is not a fun game. (if its a game) Whatever the heck it is i dont like it. Well i just wanted you to know your very normal and not weird. Theres TONS of us out there that feel this way. So welcome to MJville. lol. Welcome aboard the MJ express. Stop this train please i want off! LOL.
I have been on a huge rollercoaster since June 25th... and anger is one of those stages.
All i can say is keep an open mind.. we are in the dark and that is why we are all confused and hurt. Only the truth will set us free.
Once we have the truth, we can understand and accept and start to move on.
Too many people are lying and covering up, too many people are profiting and not caring... sell a story for a price and not care about anyone else.
All the advice i can offer is to keep an open mind.... do not put all your hopes into the hoax theory as there is the very real option that MJ has passed on.
Ive always been 50/50 on a death hoax or a murder cover up... all i know is that people are lying and they must be lying for a reason.
All we can do here is investigate and bring the truth out of the dark. We are getting nearer.
Whatever the truth is and whatever has happened.. we will get justice for Michael. We are all on Michaels side. We all miss him and love him... and remember, he loved us more. xxxxx
Think about all the good things Michael has done and the songs he sung.
Keep The Faith, Man In The Mirror, Earth Song, Black Or White.
Just a couple of songs to show you can have hope.
I listen to Michael Jackson songs everyday and I keep the Message in mind.
The songs give me a feeling like there is more than living.
Keep the faith <!-- s;) -->;)<!-- s;) -->
Peace.
Yesterday I went back to exercising - I had let it go for two weeks, because I was beginning to lose hope. But yesterday I thought - what did Michael represent? Did he represent negativity? No. Did he represent depression? No. Did he represent giving up? No...He represented happiness and love, no matter what tried to pull him down. He represented STRENGTH MAN!!! STRENGTH!!! I can't think of anyone THAT strong, that could live throughout all the crap that kept coming at him!!! So in the energy of Michael, I said I had to continue living positively - until June, maybe July, maybe even August comes around...whether or not we find out he is alive and well, or nothing happens and nothing is heard or seen...we still have to live positively, because that is what he represented. Even if God forbid, the day comes that we all realize he is actually gone, and the hoax theory does not hold - we still have to go on and live and be just like him - who we admire and love so much. It would BE IN VAIN IF WE LIVE DEFEATED...what worth would Michael's life be, if we all just threw our hands up and said "I can't live anymore..."?? All the songs, all the messages, all the peace signs and "I love you"s that he sent out would be in vain - it would mean nothing if we ended up defeated. We have to live and prosper and send down his legacy and message and life story to the next generation and the next, and prove that his fans are exactly the positive examples that came out of his LIFE!!! If you ever forget him for good - what would his life mean? It would have been for nothing...you can't forget him for ever...You have to keep him alive in your purpose in spreading good and spreading positivity...That's what he was placed here on earth for - if he comes back, WOW...what a day it will be...down in history...but if he doesn't, WE STILL HAVE TO LET HIS SPIRIT LIVE through US!!!
But then I imagine my life without him, without his music, his influence... and I just cant. that would completely destroy me. I honestly wouldnt be the person I am today without Michael.
Thank you Michael. From the bottom of my heart.. thank you. <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
that is exactly how I feel too, almost like I want to get out of a painful relationship, but it's Michael, how could I? He was always there to cheer me up and whatever has happened should not take power over all the good times.