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Hi everyone, I've been along a path of discovery about MJ over the past few months which lead me here several weeks ago.
Before June 2009 I simply liked his songs and thought the media had given him a rough ride. Like many of my age, his music has been the soundtrack of my life. Even in the months after he 'died', I accepted his death, but the uneasy thoughts that something wasn't right with events were pushed back in my mind as things in my own life took over.
Then in February I started being drawn back to him, I bought all his CDs that I didn't already have, and discovered the joys of 'Invincible', (shamefully remembering I hadn't bought it at the time because the media said it wasn't up to standard). I read his lyrics, watched his live performances, videos and short films (just love Ghosts!). I listened to interviews and his speeches and read his poetry and writings and about his charity/humanitarian work. I've never spent so many hours on the computer!
The upshot of all this was that I went from admiring an awesomely talented entertainer to appreciating him as a loving, deep, wise, humble and funny man with an important message.
I've been through an emotional wringer! So sad and so many tears when I thought he was dead. Confusion, but hope when I stumbled across death hoax stuff on Youtube. I've felt like I am going mad, am I crazy to even entertain the thought that he may be alive?
Having looked around this site for several weeks, I finally sat down and read all the parts of TIAI Revealed and Updates. What a marathon that was! But what an eye-opener. I need more time to assimilate everything and prove to myself that I'm not accepting all this because it's just what I desperately want to believe.
I'm sorry, that was probably much more than an 'introduction' and I'm sure you've heard the same story many times before - but hey, that's me!
Before June 2009 I simply liked his songs and thought the media had given him a rough ride. Like many of my age, his music has been the soundtrack of my life. Even in the months after he 'died', I accepted his death, but the uneasy thoughts that something wasn't right with events were pushed back in my mind as things in my own life took over.
Then in February I started being drawn back to him, I bought all his CDs that I didn't already have, and discovered the joys of 'Invincible', (shamefully remembering I hadn't bought it at the time because the media said it wasn't up to standard). I read his lyrics, watched his live performances, videos and short films (just love Ghosts!). I listened to interviews and his speeches and read his poetry and writings and about his charity/humanitarian work. I've never spent so many hours on the computer!
The upshot of all this was that I went from admiring an awesomely talented entertainer to appreciating him as a loving, deep, wise, humble and funny man with an important message.
I've been through an emotional wringer! So sad and so many tears when I thought he was dead. Confusion, but hope when I stumbled across death hoax stuff on Youtube. I've felt like I am going mad, am I crazy to even entertain the thought that he may be alive?
Having looked around this site for several weeks, I finally sat down and read all the parts of TIAI Revealed and Updates. What a marathon that was! But what an eye-opener. I need more time to assimilate everything and prove to myself that I'm not accepting all this because it's just what I desperately want to believe.
I'm sorry, that was probably much more than an 'introduction' and I'm sure you've heard the same story many times before - but hey, that's me!
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i feel the same as you, i will never be the same again! <!-- s:( -->:(<!-- s:( -->
One of the many questions I often ask myself is this - "I didn't follow Michael's every move before he died so why would I feel this way about his death"?
I don't know that I've found the full answers to my questions yet but I do know that I wouldn't have searched for answers to his death if there wasn't something suspicious about it to begin with. So, we can hope beyond hope that he's alive but it's not by blind emotion that brought us on this path. The truth will prevail in the end. In the meantime keep the faith, fight for justice, and be the voice for those that have none. Blessings to you.
Voiceforthesilent, yes, I have asked myself this too. All I can say is while I've been sad at other favourite famous people's deaths, I've always been able to move on relatively quickly. With MJ, I can't let go! I'm being drawn forwards along the path I talked about in my first post. It seems like it's out of my hands - this is what I have to do. I'm not religious, but this certainly feels spiritual.