Am i The Only One That Does This When Its Sleep Time?
Miss.Peppers
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When ive had a bad day, or im really tired.. or any night really.... i hug my pillow and close my eyes and imagine Michael is with me.
Its not a sexual thing... i just imagine he is lying next to me and hugging me to sleep.
It feels so comforting.
I dont know whether i do this because of the grief i am feeling or what.
Am i the only one that does this?
Am i going slowly mad??
My avator picture is my favourite picture of Michael too. xxxxx
He was gorgeous inside and out and i wish i had been his friend. I would have been a true friend as im not materialistic and i would have been his friend for the person he is on the inside and nothing else.
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Its not a sexual thing... i just imagine he is lying next to me and hugging me to sleep.
It feels so comforting.
I dont know whether i do this because of the grief i am feeling or what.
Am i the only one that does this?
Am i going slowly mad??
My avator picture is my favourite picture of Michael too. xxxxx
He was gorgeous inside and out and i wish i had been his friend. I would have been a true friend as im not materialistic and i would have been his friend for the person he is on the inside and nothing else.
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Comments
Thankyou ((hugs))... in fact have a (((michael hug))) They are very good! x
A hug is always welcome
Thanks for the hugs.
Hugging my pillow is a sense of security for me. I also have a lot of teddy bears, so I cuddle with those.. I think of Michael all the time, but I can't think of him holding me... I usually just fall asleep, from being exhausted, or consumed in my endless thoughts.
I don't think you're going mad. I think you do it out of love for Michael and it makes you feel maybe a little bit closer to him.
I have a stuffed elephant I named "Michael." My boyfriend bought it for me since he knows that I absolutely adore elephants and I kept him at the foot of my bed with other stuffed animals I have. When Michael left in June I took to sleeping with the stuffed elephant. I don't know why - I am 41- too old to sleep with toys, I think, but it makes me feel better. I've cried so many tears for Michael while hugging this stuffed elephant. I actually can't sleep with out it now. You're not alone. I fall asleep clutching my elephant wishing it could be Michael, like you with your pillow. I think these acts are things we do to make ourselves feel better and I don't think there is anything wrong with it.
Keep the faith, girl. Michael will be back. Believe.
Hugs to you.
His name is BEAR <!-- s:P -->:P<!-- s:P -->
I always sleep with an "I love you" pillow in the shape of a heart! <!-- s:D -->:D<!-- s:D -->
I'm not doing what you do but it really sounds so sweet!
I do think really hard of michael when I'm scared or alone in the dark, in some sort of way I feel unbreakable when I think of him, like his major love will protect me
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Everytime when I walk in the dark outside, I have michael singing in my ear, through my phone offcourse haha, but it's like he takes my fears away and I feel like no one can toutch me! It's a nice feeling, since I am really afraid of the dark cause of things happend to me in the past <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
I also sleep with the rable lamp on <!-- s:oops: -->:oops:<!-- s:oops: -->
Aaawwww, I need to overcome my fears!
It gives me a very good feeling!!!
i have a teddy bear too and his name is BUBBLES <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) --> sometimes i hold him and cry at night, i don't know what it is but i feel like i and bubbles are crying together for Michael.. oh i miss him so much. i wish i could hug him right now, i won't ever let him go!
It makes me feel so much better and close to him. <!-- s:) -->:)<!-- s:) -->
Nobody should feel bad about doing this. It's a personal thing. Anything which makes us feel close to Michael is nothing but beautiful. <!-- s;) -->;)<!-- s;) -->
Sometimes I listen to him reading the "Planet Earth" poem before I sleep, cause his voice really calms me.
Everything that a hug should be and more.
Not one of them half-hearted side on hugs you get these days. Proper hug. Proper emotion. Love.